Perca-perca Kehidupan

This is really embarrassing! Honestly! When I first shared it on facebook (this morning), I don't know what it means. I kinda figure it out slowly as hours ticking. And I was like? *Tutup muka* I know this is morbid, but please don't try to decode the dream. Please, just this one.

It was quite a revelation of how time heal everything, when on one sunny afternoon, I casually opened up a story that happen to me five years ago. To cut the story short, I told this friend that I had a series of labyrinth dream which at the end led me to a girl whom (I hate to admit it back then) I fell in love with. Never once came in my mind that dreams that I followed anticipatedly could have this kind of ending. I was like, WHAT? LOVE? As Buha once put, "Sajalah tu tuhan nak bagi hang rasa apa itu CINTA." It shook my very core, challenged my belief. I always knew I was made for something nobler rather than someone's awful lover. Two years since, and someone else entered my life. I embraced it this time although secretly I resisted it. Just as it did before, this one too didn't end up with happy ending. I don't know yet what I'm missing here but it certainly brings out the worst of me. But there's this one message that hit me hard in the face. The fact...

Yesterday I had the worst yet ever, emotional upheaval in years, almost cracking if not hysterical. But God presented me something far more beautiful: A view (picture cannot capture the magic of that moment). A promise that my life isn't that bad after all. Come on, just few bad deals... You can deal with it. Written it off! Just like doves soared to the sky, my spirit lifted a little higher. There always rainbow at the end of every rain. You just have to see it. Believe it.

I'm not the kind of person who friendly enough to strike up a conversation with stranger. Often than not, I choose to retreat to the corner and try to disappear. Somehow blending is not my best faculty. Once found, some may discover I'm not a stone wall after all. After one smile, this dude come over and introduce himself as a tourist guide. He was paid handsomely RM 150 daily. He cannot work today, such a waste he said, because he had to do something for his mother. All of his siblings had to work today. This stranger begun describing all sort of works he done previously. Oral résumé if you like. Until he took a hint and asked questions about me instead. "Belajar di mana?" I chuckled. Evidently, I haven't lost my bookish charmed yet. "Oh sudah kerja. Kerja mana?" I don't want to say more. But just enough to give a bit of information. "Oh, Front Office?" Eight out of ten can guess my job correctly once I mention HOTEL. Damn! Tourism and hot...

I was almost drawn out all colors and all Nora wanted to do after we arrived was to see her cousin. "Sekejap jak... Kau tunggu sini. Kami pigi bawah. Sekejap jak..." Tracing urgency in Nora's tone, I relented. Sadly, I let Nora took Suzie down the elevators. We still need to wait for Rosmaria though. Even so, few minutes of waiting wouldn't kill anyone. It just I hated to be left alone. As Nora and Suzie disappeared from view, suddenly I felt vulnerable. This felt like a school trip to overseas without chaperone. I wandered at DVD shops to kill time. For I don't know how long, Nora finally called me. Just as we met, I noticed Suzie was perspiring like crazy. While, Nora was out of breath... Strange. What are they doing? Do a runner? Who cares, anyway when you were so hungry? I commanded them to walk a little faster. I think I can eat Kenny's Half Meal tonight I announced. While still discussing our order, Rosmaria arrived looking rather perky. She ordered quar...

I don't remember exactly how it happened, but all the sudden my M2U asked me a security question. Give me your best friend name, the system requested. I dared not answer the question. Since I failed the first time, M2U repeated the same question again. Man, will you ever give up? I stared at the screen. Trying to think of some tricks. I mean, I'm not going to answer this silly question. Sorry, not now. I shall not named the person I despised so much (overeacting). WRONG! Please try again M2U said. By the third time, given the nature of the system, heartless and apathy... Something like this showed up on my screen: Your M2U ID have been locked out . You may contact our Maybank Group . Reject code: [1202]. Don't panic! Google first. From M2U page I dialed 1-300-8866-88. The girl on the line said, there must be some suspicious activity going on, some out of ordinary, which explain why the security question appeared. I chuckled. I mean how ironic is that? SUSPICIOUS ACTIVITY? ...