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The evening show was about to start, when we arrived. It's 6.20 pm and Nora was already cursing. Just as we found the entrance, I saw Linda waiting us eagerly. We were about to watch Hobbits: The Unexpected Journey. The first installment of the three films by Peter Jackson. This has been planned in advance right after I celebrate my 34th birthday. The original line up was me, Linda and Mala. Since Mala cannot come, I invited Nora instead. The reservation printed on the paper said, Hall 6, so here we go! Honestly, I've come with no expectation. I've read Lord of the Rings twice (skip many parts)... But can't seemed to finish The Hobbit. It was fun watching Cate Blanchett, Sir Ian McKellen, Elijah Woods (to name a few) reprises their role again. And my favorite scene was the riddle game between Bilbo Baggins and Gollum. I think that was Gollum best performance to date. Yeah the Dwarves look rather ridiculous and I can't seemed to remember any of their name. Perhaps be...

SINGLE BUT NOT AVAILABLE isn't really my conscious decisions. It's more like a lifestyle. What feels right. Not to say I never had any love interest before. I did. But more often than not I resisted it. Find every imaginable reasons not to. In the end I destroyed myself all the same. YOU DESERVED SOMEONE BETTER. Seriously I mean it. It's not a rejection.  It's not that you're not good enough for me. Don't doubt your self. Your own attractiveness. Just remember this. The real problem is me NOT you. YOU LOVE YOURSELF TOO MUCH. Maybe yes maybe not. Maybe I just hate myself as much. DON'T YOU EVER FEEL LONELY? Sometime especially when that sad song was on aired. Or when everyone was leaving. Or when everything I did seem like a vain. Blimey, I'm only human. DO YOU BELIEVE SOMEONE OUT THERE MADE FOR YOU. I think, I do. For every seasons. For specific period of times. For certain purposes.